*Whewwww* Dude, my gas tank is EMPTY. I’m beyond exhausted, shit, it’s only Monday! You mean there’s 4 more days of this before I have my 5 day vacation?! You mean I’m not done yet?!
I feel like I’ve just been going, going, GOING! Yes, work has been INSANE, hell, it’s been BEYOND insane! It has literally scooped out my brain and thrown it in a frying pan. I haven’t had time to sit down, relax, re-collect myself, and really meditate and focus on myself, my goals, and my passion of fitness. I feel like my blog, my goals, and my motivation has been thrown the wayside. I have barely been skating by making it to the gym, I have been eating any sweets pushed my way, and I have had the whip cracked down HARD on my back at work, and it has really, REALLY, mentally AND physically exhausted me. There is only so much work I can do, and hours I can put in, and negative feedback I can take.
The gym is where I feel my best, where I’m my happiest. I LOVE feeling out of breath, I love physically pushing my body and mind to the limits, and I love the results that I get from it. Not just physical, but my mental well-being as well. The endorphin rush is exhilarating, it really gets my serotonin going, and boosts my mood for the entire day. I love it!
I have been letting my stress at work get in the way of my passion. I have allowed work to exhaust me, and have therefore skipped out numerous days at the gym, or have had half ass work outs. I’m NOT going to let that happen anymore. Seriously guys. I won’t. It’s a waste, a poor excuse, and ultimately let’s another factor control me and my decisions, and I won’t allow that.
It’s been a while since I’ve blatantly given a list of my goals. I need to begin setting weekly goals again, and achieving them. So this week my goals are the following:
1) Go to the gym 6 days this week! HANDS DOWN, NO EXCUSES
2) 2 days of Booty Building
3) 4 days of cardio lasting 45-60 minutes minimum
4) Moderate sweets, one refined sugar item a day, quit eating all that freakin’ toffee
5) Write down what you PLAN to eat the day before, no more “playing it by ear” it’s NOT working
6) Achieve all these goals and check back in next week
Next week I WILL check back in and I will create NEW goals. This will become habitual, I’m a goal oriented person who needs to write out their goals to hold myself accountable, and post them all over the internet so everyone else can hold me accountable. I’m done skating on by thinking I can win a competition this way. I WANT to put in the hard work and I WANT to do it the right way.
I still want to enjoy the holidays, but I know I have been going overboard lately, and not working hard enough to deserve it. This last weekend I worked out on Saturday, but didn’t workout yesterday or today. Saturday’s workout seemed really weak, I was very bored and disconnected. Too much repetitive lifting and not enough cardio to raise the heart rate. Saturday we had a Christmas party and I went over the top on alcohol. Too many glasses of wine, and too many delicious mixed drinks. Sunday I had a nasty hangover, it was NOT my proudest moment. I had originally planned to workout, but because I got a lil too crazy and drank too much I chose not to. I don’t want to set those kinds of barriers for myself, I have big goals that take a lot of hard work to achieve.
I want to do really well, not only to succeed and look great in this competition, but I love fitness and health, and I never want any outside factors determining what I do whether it be work stressing me out, me drinking too much at a Christmas party, or my pure laziness and wanting to sleep in a few more hours. I have become so good at making excuses, and I don’t want to make excuses anymore. I just want to go out and do it, I never regret it afterwards.
So here’s to setting new goals! Here’s to being inspired, refreshed, and motivated to succeed! I wouldn’t mind if you wanna check in and prod me a little bit, haha!
OOOooo! Another goal I have…. I am in search of a new gym. My current gym is TERRIBLE! I could rant, and rant, and RANT all day why the Downtown Bellevue LA Fitness is horrendous! Let’s just say their equipment is always dirty, broken, and NEVER re-racked. Last Thursday I spent a half hour re-racking weights before I could start my routine. PISSED, utterly pissed. Mind you, I’m an extreme gym snob. On top of that, their staff is completely incompetent. ‘I don’t know how to change the TV Channel’ incompetent. I feel like you should know that! Not that I watch the TV, but I overheard some ladies bad mouthing about it. I saw a dirty T Shirt sitting by the free weights for 3 weeks, and their Swiss balls are so gross that they are gray now instead of the bright lime green they once were. Not to mention, they hardly have any air…. WTF?!
Anyways…. I want to check out Iron Works by my house. It’s literally right up the road, it would be a great warm up run. If looks legit, it’s local, and is highly recommended by friends and athletes. Hoping I can make it out there this Saturday, try it out and see how I like it. It would be nice to workout in a gym that I actually enjoy, although I shouldn’t let the ‘crappiness’ of any gym deter me away from working out period. The way I see it though, if I spend about 10 hours a week at a gym, it should be nice, it’s MY time, my Zen.
Well, I better wrap up! Almost time to go home. My boss changed our schedule to working 9:30am to 6:00pm this week, little did she know we had most of our briefings leaving at 5:30pm or later, one of which is departing at 6:15pm. Not sure what she was seeing when she checked the schedule. I just loooove being here longer after all! Spirit to serve! ♥ *Saaaaarcasssmmmm*
Goodnight folks! Thanks for following my nonsense, have a great week!