It’s been a few days since I’ve last written. I’ve been staying on task with training, eating really well and staying on my diet (just a few extra spoonfuls of peanut butter some days), and adding plenty more cardio into my training. I’m seriously loving the outdoor cardio!
I’m relieved next week I will be working my normal 11:00am to 7:30pm shift at work. It’s been so hard getting out of bed in the mornings this past week to work 10:00am to 6:30pm. I would rather wait an hour to leave at the end of my shift after all my work is done, then rush and stress and make it out RIGHT on time. I love buffer time! I’m always about 15 minutes early to work too, it’s my ‘zen time’ to re-collect my thoughts and mentally prepare for the day.
I have been working out after work since it’s so hard waking up in the morning. Friday night I ran home, I even added a couple mile loop into my run so I could complete 5.25 miles in 45 minutes. Felt amazing! My hands were *FREEEEEZING* though! When I got home I did a couple Zuzka videos and murdered my glutes. My glutes were so sore I couldn’t walk like a normal person! It felt really good though to get my plyo’s in after a long run, definitely challenged the muscles.
It definitely helped that I had a rough day as well, people’s comments have been fuel for my workouts for the past few days. Let me elaborate:
First of all, everyone knows that I am doing this competition naturally. No fat burners, no caffeine or stimulants, not even pre-workout! I pride myself on my passion for the health and fitness industry. I have so much respect for my body, I won’t mistreat it under any circumstances; not for a trophy, not for first place, not for anything.
I was confiding in a friend, asking for advice on how to lift my booty. In turn, they asked for my diet, so I told them what I was eating. I thought we were swapping tips. They responded by telling me that my diet is great, but I need to be eating more protein. That was all fine and good! YES! Maybe I DO need to be eating more protein. The conversation didn’t stop there though. They proceeded to tell me that THEIR trainer made the comment (based off of IG photos) that my muscles are ‘being eaten away‘ and I have ‘skinny girl abs’……. what? Your trainer is looking at my IG photos and critiquing me, making the very bold statement that my ‘muscles are being eaten away’?
I’m sure they were coming from a good place, but it really irked me that their trainer would make that comment about me. They both know that my husband is my trainer, training people is his profession. I am his wife, and he would NEVER allow me to starve. After those comments, of course I told Derek. I was beginning to doubt him! I was beginning to doubt myself! I would never starve myself, I would never become ‘unhealthy’ to achieve a perfect physique. That’s so contradictory after-all, that’s everything I’m against.
Anyways, the situation became blown out of proportion, I won’t even go into great detail.
Point is, these comments really DID get into my head and started to alter my thinking about myself. I had a momentary lapse of confidence, and that’s my fault for even letting it bother me. I’ve been using that emotion to fuel my workouts for the past few days, and I’m even more motivated now to get my ass in the gym and work 110% time harder. Yes, I want to win, but I want to win naturally, AND as a reward to myself, I want to maintain my competition body year round to the best of my ability. I don’t want to earn a body that is so far off of my natural shape, I won’t let myself do that. Health and fitness is a full-time and year round job.
This upcoming week and the next 14 weeks I’m going to give it my all.
I’m going to wake up every morning, get my ass out of bed, take it to the gym, and train with intensity. I’m not going to stray off my diet and I’m only going to eat as many spoonfuls of peanut butter as I should. My ‘cheat meals’ will no longer include dessert, unless dessert IS my cheat meal. I haven’t been giving it my all, but I know if I do I’ll be competition ready in no time.
So here’s to the next 14 weeks!
Today I am going to Costco with the fam-bam to refill our very depleted fridge. I’ll be spending the day meal prepping, working out, and working on my base tan. I created a new ‘Lift List’ yesterday! I’m doing to share it with you, don’t make fun of me for half of the songs:
1) ‘Feeling Myself’ by Will-I-Am & Miley Cyrus
2) ‘Put Your Graffiti on Me’ by Kat Graham
3) ‘Fever in Her Eyes’ – AMB Remix
4) ‘Heartkiller’ by Kat Graham
5) ‘Mirrors’ by Justin Timberlake
6) ‘Suit & Tie’ by Justin Timberlake
7) ‘Timber’ by Pitbull & Kesha
8) ‘Hold On, We’re Going Home’ by Drake
9) ‘Rude Boy’ by Rihanna
10) ‘Blurred Lines’ by Robin Thicke
Please recommend any more songs! I definitely need some more upbeat music, I have listened to my whole music library a thousand times and more!
I hope everyone has an awesome week, stay tuned for progress updates, you can bet I’ll be making more progress over the next few weeks. Until next time……