I want to drown my sorrow in peanut butter………

I want to drown my sorrow in peanut butter.........

It’s been….. a day.

Started out freakin’ fantastic! I went to the gym, worked out (not the workout posted), burned a good 650 calories, did some plyo circuits, cardio, and smashed out some glute exercises in the squat rack and on the cable machine. I went home and half-ass watched a TV show while eating some delicious oats, PB2, and almond milk with coffee and my cat in my lap. After an hour long cuddle session with Pookie, I got ready for work and took Keyda for a walk. I cleaned up the house a bit, packed running clothes for my run home tonight, and walked to the bus stop in good spirits. The sun was out, it was warm, and damn was I feeling alright 🙂

Then a stormy cloud rolled in when I got to work. I had a meeting with my manager and the manager of the role that I applied for and was told that I did not receive the position. Usually I wouldn’t be so bummed, but after dwelling on it for nearly 5 hours, I’m extremely upset and a little offended. I have applied for this position (or similar position) 3 times now and have been denied for the full time position twice. I’ve only shown drive, dedication, and passion for this position since the day I started a year ago. I have taken ownership of so many projects, submitted so many business improvements, and show true leadership qualities and am even cross training for the role! All of those qualities have been overlooked and the position has been offered to someone else who has been with the company ‘longer’.

*Le siiiiiiiigh* As upset as I am, I am taking this as a sign….. I’m going to chase my dreams and follow my passion. If they had chosen me for the position, I would have been committed for at least 2 years and would have little time for myself. Sure, the pay is better and the benefits are better, but let’s be honest: the position is no joke, it’s tough work, it’s confrontational, you put up with a lot of crap from people, you have to know how to say ‘no’ firmly, you have to be professional at all times, be able to think fast on your feet, and work independently and QUICKLY. I would have been great at it, but I know that fitness and health is my calling, I’m no longer going to deny it. I am my happiest when I’m in the gym or even sitting at home surfing the internet about nutrition, macros, recipes, and workout ideas.

On the upside! I will be moving to the morning shift! I will be working 6:00am to 2:30pm, so no more late nights wondering when the hell I’ll be off work. I can enjoy the day light, make appointments, make plans with friends, take my dog to the dog park etc. I’ve been waiting for the morning shift for so long, I’m actually pretty pumped about it. The only downside: I LOATHE the gym at 3:00pm!


Definitely need to start looking into school for Nutrition soon! I need, need, NEED to go back and do something with my life, and nutrition seems to be the direction I feel great about. It will be tough with finances, but it’s worth it. If Derek can do everything he does; two jobs, full time school schedule, preparing for Law School, travelling half way across the state every other weekend to pick up Kai, and taking care of his family then I can go to work and school too. He’s got it MUCH tougher than anyone I know, he’s a great role model and inspiration.

Well….. on that note…….

I’m really excited about running home tonight. I need fresh air, I need to clear my mind and hit the reset button. It’s been the longest day in the history of…. my career at the EBC…..

So long, hope everyone is having a better Thursday than me……


2 thoughts on “I want to drown my sorrow in peanut butter………

    • Sorry for the late response! Thanks so much, I had a great Valentine’s Day, hope yours was great too 🙂

      As for the position, I was pretty bummed about it BUT I get a new shift so now I can go to school for what I’m passionate about: Health and nutrition!


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