Motivation

I need some motivation.

Some SERIOUS motivation.

Emerald Cup is in 7 weeks! Shit! I need to get my A-Game on! I know I say this every weekend, usually Sundays, but I’m serious…. time to start the real cut. Time to shed some fat, pump up the cardio, and stick with my two-a-day plans. My husband is re-vamping my workout schedule this weekend, he’ll be adding plenty more cardio. I’ve also committed to this weekend being my LAST cheat meal…. yes, that’s right. My last 😦 Restricting my calories, being a macro nazi, and LAYING – OFF – THE – PEANUT BUTTER! FOR REAL THIS TIME! UGHHHH, that shit is my kryptonite. To better prepare myself for this cut, I’m gonna be planning my meals for the whole week in myfitnesspal and I’ll be bringing my own lunch to work so I can properly measure everything.

It’s seems so real and so close now since I keep receiving weekly countdown emails since 8 weeks out from Craig Productions. Here’s the most recent one I received for 7 weeks out:

“Dear 2014 Emerald Cup Competitors: 
 
It’s the 7 week countdown!! All of you are demonstrating championship character. You are putting in countless hours of work in preparing for your time on stage. Yes it’s hard. Yes there are some days you wonder why you are doing this. It’s because you are a champion. You think like a champion. You act like a champion. You do what a champion does. This is what sets you apart from someone else.
 
Preparing for a competition shows you have the character to work hard at something and finish it. How many people do you know that could go through everything you have put yourself through these past few weeks, months, years? How many times during your preparations have acquaintances, friends or family asked you to skip a workout or have some cake at a party? They don’t understand. They don’t understand how bad you want this. They don’t understand the mind of a champion.
 
You are showing them what a champion does, how a champion thinks, how a champion acts. Every day you wake up and follow your plan you are an inspiration. Others may never achieve what you are achieving but they are watching you. You are teaching them how it’s done. You are inspiring them. When they take on a challenge, they will remember you.
 
Your green 2014 Emerald Cup competitor wristband reminds you that you are a champion! It reminds you of your goal. It reminds you that you are unstoppable, that when challenges arise, you overcome them! You will be victorious. You will look back on your whole experience and be able to say, “I did it! I accomplished my goal! I am a champion!!”
I personally think the email is a lil’ intense, and to be frank, cocky as all hell. I’m not doing this competition to compare myself with others like this email implies. I’m not comparing myself to fellow competitors or to people who ‘don’t understand’ why I’m doing this. I’m doing this to compete with myself. To mold and sculpt my body, because I can, because I believe the human body is a piece of art.
Sometimes I forget WHY I’m doing this, sometimes I want to quit because I think it’s really dumb, vain, narcissistic, and down-right fake. When I started this blog months ago I was all about winning, being number one, taking home a trophy, doing WHATEVER it takes to win, hoping opportunities would unfold and provide a better life for me. I was placing way too much stress into this, and it started sucking the joy out of the process. Now I want to do it to prove to myself that I can, I can do anything with my body from performance to aesthetics, and I can do it properly and bring something new to the stage.
I’ve gone through waves of stressing about my macros, that jar of peanut butter I killed in 20 minutes, beating myself up for missed workouts, exhausting myself with two-a-days, etc. The next month and a half is gonna be the REAL test with this cutting plan, but I’m gonna hold my head up high, fit in ALL of my workouts, put the peanut butter on the top shelf where I can’t reach, and have a positive humble attitude.
I can’t say this has been the most enjoyable process, because that would be a lie. It’s been downright crappy sometimes, but it could always be worse…. like it’s about to be, haha.
So here’s to 7 weeks out, 1,000 – 1,200 calorie diet, cardio, and intense workouts. Adios peanut butter and cheat meals, see ya on the other side 🙂
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2 thoughts on “Motivation

  1. I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again-you got this girl! You have been doing amazing work, and I know you have the stamina to see this through. If I could fly out and eat your first post-comp cheat meal with you, I totally would. Don’t let anything make you doubt your reasons for doing this-the only person you need to beat is the person you were yesterday.

    • Thank you so much for being so encouraging the past few months on this crazy journey of mine! It’s been really tough, good days and bad days. Obessessive days and days where I just wanna say screw it and lay on the couch with a bag of Kettle Chips watching Vampire diaries. At first it was too far away, and now it’s too close! Would be honored to place Top 5, but I’m doing the best I can for me and no one else. Wish you could come out for post comp extravaganza! Debating between Lunchbox Laboratory for a huge juicy burger and a Boozey-shake, OR Cheesecake Factory pasta dish with a slice of Red Velvet cheese cake afterwards….. decisions decisions…. 🙂

      ~Jess

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