Holy shit….. 4 days out and I’m freakin’ NERVOUS! It’s finally here! All my hard work, hunger, hours spent in the gym, meal prepping, blogging, watching YouTube videos, researching methods, practicing my posing are coming together into one package I’ll be presenting on stage this Saturday, April 26th, 2014. FINALLY! I feel like I’ve been prepping my entire life! I’ve put so much heart, soul, and obsession into this journey, I’m so ready to show off my hard work and eat an effin’ burger!
I’m not gonna lie, there has been good, bad, and flat out UGLY. This journey hasn’t been pretty, it’s been stressful as all hell, it’s put extreme strain on my life, but has also taught me SOOO much I can’t even begin to explain. It’s been wild guys, it’s been extremely wild! So much to do this week! I have to tan, exfoliate, spray tan, nails, bikini wax, practice with a couple gals, spray tan, check-in, buy the last pieces of my jewelry and attend the Friday night show with some friends!
Peak week diet has been UNREAL and it’s only been 2 days! All I’m eating is:
-Lean Ground Turkey
-Almond Butter (when I REALLY need it, but especially on Friday and Saturday!)
I started depleting my water and damn did I ever feel dehydrated today! It was awful! 2 gallons down to 1 gallon! Normally a gallon would sound like a lot, but I really liked drinking my 2 gallons, I felt phenomenal. It will probably take a lil bit of time to adjust, but I think I should be okay.
There have been days where I totally psych myself out, and compare myself to the other girls and begin doubting myself. I had my heart set on Top 5 but everyone looks so good, everyone worked so damn hard to get to where they are, everyone is a winner and I wouldn’t be disappointed if I didn’t place how I thought I would. I’m just so sick and tired of being so self critical, I don’t give myself nearly enough credit for the hard work I’ve put in. I tend to focus on how I could have done things differently, or think, “If I didn’t eat that would I have been tighter?” “If I had lifted heavier weights would my booty be bigger?” etc. This has definitely been an experience, and it’s not over yet! I still have to rock the stage on Saturday! You can bet you’ll be hearing ALLLL about it though 🙂
My goal is to make it through this week. Today was extremely tough. I forgot my chicken breast in the fridge at work, so I didn’t have anything to eat before or after my workout. It was hardcore. I’ve been carb depleted all day. Half the time I wanted to punch people, I couldn’t even really smile or change my facial expression, I was really tired, and could only sigh and yawn all day. I don’t know how I powered through a 90 minute cardio workout…. whewww. Boss status.
Tomorrow is a new day though! I keep telling myself that. There are good days and bad days. You can’t have them all be the best, tough it out. 4 more days! WEEEEE! Nighty, night folks, I need to catch some ZZZzzz’s….