Alright guys, I’ll be real with you.
I know everyone is probably so sick of my post comp blue posts, my loving and hating of my body, my on and off again with diet and exercise, blah blah blah.
I’ve become so sick and tired of putting in work at the gym and eating right for aesthetic purposes. Yes, I freakin’ miss my rock hard lean abs, YES I wish my ass was tighter and my cellulite would disappear. The reality of it all is: I will NEVER have that body back, and no matter how much I tell myself I CAN have that body without hurting myself it’s just not true.
Sitting at 8% body fat is not normal or healthy, and it’s a mind trip as well as a massive detriment to your body. My whole blog is about promoting fitness and health. There is nothing healthy about living off of 1,200 calories a day and working out 2 hours a day 6 days a week and nearly passing out from malnutrition. There were a lot of truths I didn’t write about that I was experiencing on that 6 month journey, and I still can’t admit to all of them. I will tell you this: I’m not proud of the things I did to achieve that stage body. I’m proud I did it, but not HOW I did it.
Today I vow to have a new outlook and perspective on fitness and health:
I vow to never hurt my body for aesthetic purposes,
I will fuel my body properly for all the daily functions I perform,
and for all the extra physical activity I do.
I vow to use proper nutrition to the best of my ability,
but to also treat myself and live a little because what’s a celebration without good food?
I vow to not obsess about the scale or my outwardly appearance,
but to maintain a good balance of self awareness.
I vow to start training how I WANT to train,
instead of letting aesthetics dictate how I train.
I vow to treat my body and mind with the utmost respect,
and to become a better person on the inside and out,
in doing so becoming more selfless and aware of others.
You won’t be hearing my woes or diet and weight loss struggles any longer. I want to practice self love regardless of my butt, abs, or thighs. From now on, only positivity 🙂
I will no longer be practicing IIFYM, I’ll eat when I’m hungry. I will no longer be weighing or measuring my body, I’ll train to eat and eat to train 🙂
Here’s to a refreshing change of perspective!