How to begin….
This week has been complete and utter hell wrapped in euphoria that is indescribable. I have experienced every possible emotion multiplied by a thousand. I have felt my heart shatter into a million little pieces, only to be crushed to dust and swept by the wind without hope that I could ever be whole again.
I have also felt a strong euphoric and desperate love that left me shaking, breathless, craving more, and wishing that every inch of my soul could be filled with it over and over again.
The universe has a curious way of turning over new leaves in our lives for growth and self discovery. Sometimes you have to feel like you lost it all, to hold it tighter, and work harder to never lose it. Sometimes you need to have the rug ripped from underneath you. It’s a wake up call, a reality check. A fucking cruel one, but it makes you realize what your priorities are, and what you are willing to do to create a better future.
That same wake up call could also be your ticket to freedom, a fresh start, a door to the scary unknown that leaves your body coursing with excitement at the limitless possibility. You could use this wake up call as a lesson to protect your heart and learn to truly love yourself before learning to love another.
““If you obsess over whether you are making the right decision, you are basically assuming that the universe will reward you for one thing and punish you for another.
The universe has no fixed agenda. Once you make any decision, it works around that decision. There is no right or wrong, only a series of possibilities that shift with each thought, feeling, and action that you experience.”
– Deepak Chopra
There is no right or wrong course action for the wake up call. Although this is undyingly true, ask yourself how you want to live the rest of your life. Do you want to be shackled to the bitter memories of the past, or do you want to move forward with hope towards a brighter future?