Why Compete?

I’ve been debating doing a competition for months now. To compete again or not? Am I ready mentally and physically? What are my resources and who would be my support system? Should I be going balls to the wall or should I play it safe and just do my workout thing and wait to compete until next year? Am I ready for a calorie deficit and bro foods? Do I even have the time between a full time job, online school, and being a dog mom?

Well I’m doing it and I’ll be stepping on stage in 9 weeks for Emerald Cup yet again. So why? Why compete? Everyone has a different reason. My reason this time is very much different than my reason 2 years ago. 2 years ago I was hungry for gold, I wanted that plastic trophy, I wanted the tiara placed on my head, competing was my waking thought, continuous thought throughout the day, until I laid my head down at night where I would continue to dream about the stage.

2 years ago my prep was awful and my motivation quite vain and juvenile. I started dieting on 1,200 calories in January, 4 months before the show. I didn’t own a food scale so I under estimated all my chicken and turkey, so if I’m being honest, I was likely consuming between 800 – 1,000 calories a day. I lost my period for nearly a year, I had rashes and bruises that wouldn’t heal, and life on the home front wasn’t as peachy as I made it look. Competing was tough on my husband at the time. When the show was over, he said he would leave me if I ever competed again.

Well, 2 years later and he has left me. Not by my choice to compete, but by actions of his own. So I’m free. Free to do as I please. Free to surround myself with who I want. Free to follow my passions again, and free to not give a fuck about what everyone else is saying, doing, or thinking. Now is the perfect time to set my goals and hit them hard.

So what’s motivating me this year?

I am in the pursuit of physical and mental strength. I’m focusing on me 100%, something I never felt like I was able to do, and if I did, I was considered selfish. I’m done telling myself “You’re not beautiful, you’re not intelligent, you have no direction, you have no goals, you’re doing absolutely nothing with your life.” I’m done allowing my broken marriage to continue breaking my spirit. I’m proving to myself, and only me, that I have drive, passion, focus, and it’s okay to think about me and it’s okay to tell myself I’m beautiful.

I have such an awesome support system, I’ve met so many cool people already this second time around. My coach is a bad ass, let’s me blow up his phone with 5 million questions, he’s feeding me lots of food and I feel great. I’m getting my meals and nutrition from Physique Kitchen, delicious steak, rosemary potatoes and the works! 4oz this year looks different than “4oz” 2 years ago. I haven’t been hungry and the muscles are poppin’!

One of the reasons this sport is so appealing to me is you have control, you become so in tune with your own body, you are your own science experiment, you are the potter and the clay, every day you are learning. This year I am less concerned with a gold trophy, even though I will work hard like I’m winning first place. No, this year I’m hungry for a good experience, knowledge, and mental gain.

~Jess

 

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FitBliss Fitness – Check In #4

Yes! I’m stickin’ with the FitBliss Fitness program, I just haven’t posted a check-in on my blog in a while, forgive me!

I’m feeling pretty fuckin’ amazing truth be told. I’m getting stronger and stronger every week, have added more gym workouts, weights are increasing, and reps are increasing. To reward myself, I joined David Barton Gym in Downtown Bellevue! My dream gym, I am finally a member! I took advantage of the $0 enrollment $89 a month special. On the weekends I’m damn near the only one there so it’s my playground, and even during Prime Time on weekdays, it’s way less crowded than L.A. Fitness. I never have to wait for a piece of equipment or spot. Best decision ever! No regrets.

Lynndsey also bestowed upon me a calorie increase a few weeks ago, so my body is extremely grateful! Now I can go harder and fuel more. Which means more what? Pizzaaaaaaa duh!

My weight has stayed at pretty average 125 lbs. I don’t really pay attention to the scale since I’m shooting for strength, muscle, and transforming my body composition. My measurements have stayed consistent overall, but my waist is shrinking! I want to measure my BF% this week to get a better idea of where my body is sitting. As far as strength and composition, I’m very satisfied.

Small of Waist: 25.5 in
Waist: 27 in
Hips: 38.5 in
Right Leg: 22.5 in
Left Leg: 22 in
Right Arm: 10.5 in
Left Arm: 10.5 in

The past few weeks I’ve been debating whether or not I should compete this year. I’m not sure if I want to do Emerald Cup in 11 weeks or wait for a show in Fall. Emerald Cup seems so soon, but I am sentimentally attached to the idea of competing in what was my first and only show. I’ve also been entertaining the idea of competing WBFF. I love the body composition of WBFF competitors and their stage presence. More to come!

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Left: January 17th, 2016                        Right: January 24th, 2016

 

~Jess

FitBliss Fitness – Check In #3

Hello and good morning all! I hope everyone had an amazing holiday season and enjoyed ALL the treats! I know I definitely did which is why there isn’t much progress for me this week as far as measurements and weight are concerned. However, I DO feel stronger and notice a difference with how I feel as well as my overall body composition. I also didn’t “gain” any weight so that’s a plus!

Here are my measurements as of Monday, December 28th:

Small of Waist: 26 in
Waist: 28 in
Hips: 38.5 in
Right Leg: 22 in
Left Leg: 22 in
Right Arm: 10.5 in
Left Arm: 10.5 in

According to my Woman Log, Aunt Flo will be in town beginning this weekend, which explains my cravings for all things fatty and delicious. I need to brainstorm a way to combat these cravings. I won’t lie, I haven’t been measuring my almond butter as accurately as I should!

To help ensure I’m staying within my calorie and macro allotment, I will
make the following adjustments:

  1. Since there is no way to measure my lightsfood at the Cafe where I work, I will be bringing my OWN meals for lunch.
  2. I will begin measuring EVERYTHING! No more guesstimation! I’m not doing the plan any justice by “guessing.”
  3. Plan my meals and measure my macros at least the day BEFORE! This allows me to play with MFP, add my treats when I know Aunt Flo is visiting, and set myself up for success to stay within my calorie and macro allotment.
  4. Schedule my workouts the week before and write them on my calendar! I will be starting school next week, so this will be imperative!
  5. Effectively plan my meals when I know I have social events to attend, always be prepared.

Just for shits and giggles, I’m posting this Snap Chat photo from Sunday’s shopping adventure. Plato’s Closet dressing room lighting on FLEEK!

Here’s to a week of crushing goals! Everyone have a safe and fun NYE tomorrow 🙂

~Jess

 

Day 1 – FitBliss Fitness Training!

Today marks the first day of my FitBliss Fitness Training program with Lynndsey Eldridge and her wonderful team! I’m very excited, I’ve been needing an ass whooping for several months now. I’m ready to grow, become stronger, create a healthy lifestyle again and be held accountable to achieve my goals. I will be documenting my journey on this blog as another form of accountability. I’ll try to check in at least once a week with updates on measurements, weigh ins, and progress pictures.

fitblissWho knows, maybe I’ll decide to compete next year?! Big goals underway….

~Jess

KB Single Leg Squat Knee Tuck Combo

Soooo, I’ve been meaning to do this for pretty much a YEAR now.

I really suck at iMovie, video editing, video recording in general, YouTube, you name it. But I’m accepting the challenge to create an Exercise Video Library so you guys have something to reference when I post workouts, and so I don’t have to spend hours scouring YouTube for the right video.

Today is the first day of Spring Quarter so I probably should have been working on this during Spring Break, but whatever, it’s a start! I am vowing to watch less TV during my free time (keyword less, I’m not banning it completely!) so I can focus more on school work, fundraising, volunteer events, and creating a decent size Exercise Video Library for the workouts I write.

Here’s my first exercise video! Details can be found in the video description. I will hopefully be posting more this week so I can have a full workout posted by the weekend. Stay tuned for more, and in the mean time, invest in a 25lb kettlebell!

~Jess

Full Body Tabata Circuit

If you haven’t downloaded the Tabata Pro Timer app I wrote about a few days ago, do so NOW for the best high intensity cardio workouts of your life!

Kid you not.

Today I did two short Tabata workouts that I wrote myself, on top of a Body Crush workout from none other than Zuzka Light, and I burned way more calories than I typically burn doing compound or isolation moves.

I was sweating, working hard, breathing hard, and I WILL be sore tomorrow. I wanted to share one of the two Tabata workouts I completed today:

fullbodytabataFor your reference, the information you will plug into the Tabata Pro Timer will look like the following:

tabatatimer

By all means! Make any adjustments as you see fit!

I promise you will become addicted to Tabata training.

Try it out and let me know how you like it!

~Jess

Taking a Break from the Textbooks….

I know, I know. I’m a terrible blogger. It’s only the 3rd week of the New Year and I’ve already fudged up my New Year Goals for my blog! I haven’t posted a recipe or a workout in over a week, I’ve been naughty 😦

I’ve been doing well in all other areas of my New Year Goals! Hitting my workouts, writing in my journal, becoming better at logging my meals in myfitnesspal… ALL my meals 😉

To be honest, this quarter has been insane. I can’t seem to keep up with the amount of notes, flashcards, studying, labs, and key terms for Biology. Derek introduced me to the Study Blue app though, which has proven to be a wonderful and helpful tool! I can easily take flash card notes on my key terms while I read, saves time, AND the app has a quiz feature using True or False, Multiple Choice, or Fill in the Blank. I’ve already done much better on my quizzes, and I feel like I can absorb more information since my note taking time has been cut in half.

English 201 has been quite a bit to wrap my mind around as well. I think I’m thinking too hard about my Quarter Research Project, developing a thesis on Thailand Environmental issues has been exceedingly difficult. I kind of want to just write the entire 8 -10 page paper NOW and just keep editing it every day until it’s due, refining it, instead of investing so much time into chunks of it. Hey, that’s actually not a bad idea, I might consider that!

Math ….. well I hate Math period, but I feel like this quarter it might be my “relief” course. Math is reliable.

Classes have been crazy and school has hit our pocketbook, but thankfully I qualify for unsubsidized loans for school. Each quarter we’ve been paying for my books and remaining tuition out of pocket, estimating $800, not including Derek’s school costs. I qualify for a gracious amount and will be receiving a check for last quarter as well. Hallelujah!

Aside from the school commotion, I’ve been doing well! I’ve been eating better, working out consistently, improving my time management skills, and waking up early on the weekends to increase my productivity. I’ve actually made some progress with my body over the last 3 weeks through eating better and kettlebell training. I feel lean, mean, and clean 🙂 I also stocked up on the new S’mores and Cookies n’ Cream Quest bars, as well as White Chocolate Chip Macadamia Nut Protein Cookies by Lenny & Larry’s for loooong school days. Delicious!

progress lenny

Yesterday I had my Annual Review at the EBC. 2 years with Microsoft, I can do anything now 😉 I received plenty of great feedback from my manager, enough praise to make me blush, and good raise. Kudos me! My manager says it’s time to take the next step in my career. Honestly, I’m very happy with my current role, the schedule, and pay, it gives me so much freedom and flexibility with school. We will see what’s in the cards. I am open to opportunity.

The next few months will be jam packed! Derek is starting his half sleeve tattoo next, we are going to Kurios Cirque Sol Leil at the end of the month, our 3 year anniversary is Valentine’s Day weekend, Derek will be competing in a 50K with a 5,000 foot elevation gain in March, and we should know where Derek is going to Law School in April! Wheww!

kurios-cirque-du-soleil-cabinet-curiosities-02-

I hope everyone else has been sticking with their New Year Goals, have a great weekend!

~Jess