Why Compete?

I’ve been debating doing a competition for months now. To compete again or not? Am I ready mentally and physically? What are my resources and who would be my support system? Should I be going balls to the wall or should I play it safe and just do my workout thing and wait to compete until next year? Am I ready for a calorie deficit and bro foods? Do I even have the time between a full time job, online school, and being a dog mom?

Well I’m doing it and I’ll be stepping on stage in 9 weeks for Emerald Cup yet again. So why? Why compete? Everyone has a different reason. My reason this time is very much different than my reason 2 years ago. 2 years ago I was hungry for gold, I wanted that plastic trophy, I wanted the tiara placed on my head, competing was my waking thought, continuous thought throughout the day, until I laid my head down at night where I would continue to dream about the stage.

2 years ago my prep was awful and my motivation quite vain and juvenile. I started dieting on 1,200 calories in January, 4 months before the show. I didn’t own a food scale so I under estimated all my chicken and turkey, so if I’m being honest, I was likely consuming between 800 – 1,000 calories a day. I lost my period for nearly a year, I had rashes and bruises that wouldn’t heal, and life on the home front wasn’t as peachy as I made it look. Competing was tough on my husband at the time. When the show was over, he said he would leave me if I ever competed again.

Well, 2 years later and he has left me. Not by my choice to compete, but by actions of his own. So I’m free. Free to do as I please. Free to surround myself with who I want. Free to follow my passions again, and free to not give a fuck about what everyone else is saying, doing, or thinking. Now is the perfect time to set my goals and hit them hard.

So what’s motivating me this year?

I am in the pursuit of physical and mental strength. I’m focusing on me 100%, something I never felt like I was able to do, and if I did, I was considered selfish. I’m done telling myself “You’re not beautiful, you’re not intelligent, you have no direction, you have no goals, you’re doing absolutely nothing with your life.” I’m done allowing my broken marriage to continue breaking my spirit. I’m proving to myself, and only me, that I have drive, passion, focus, and it’s okay to think about me and it’s okay to tell myself I’m beautiful.

I have such an awesome support system, I’ve met so many cool people already this second time around. My coach is a bad ass, let’s me blow up his phone with 5 million questions, he’s feeding me lots of food and I feel great. I’m getting my meals and nutrition from Physique Kitchen, delicious steak, rosemary potatoes and the works! 4oz this year looks different than “4oz” 2 years ago. I haven’t been hungry and the muscles are poppin’!

One of the reasons this sport is so appealing to me is you have control, you become so in tune with your own body, you are your own science experiment, you are the potter and the clay, every day you are learning. This year I am less concerned with a gold trophy, even though I will work hard like I’m winning first place. No, this year I’m hungry for a good experience, knowledge, and mental gain.

~Jess

 

FitBliss Fitness – Check In #4

Yes! I’m stickin’ with the FitBliss Fitness program, I just haven’t posted a check-in on my blog in a while, forgive me!

I’m feeling pretty fuckin’ amazing truth be told. I’m getting stronger and stronger every week, have added more gym workouts, weights are increasing, and reps are increasing. To reward myself, I joined David Barton Gym in Downtown Bellevue! My dream gym, I am finally a member! I took advantage of the $0 enrollment $89 a month special. On the weekends I’m damn near the only one there so it’s my playground, and even during Prime Time on weekdays, it’s way less crowded than L.A. Fitness. I never have to wait for a piece of equipment or spot. Best decision ever! No regrets.

Lynndsey also bestowed upon me a calorie increase a few weeks ago, so my body is extremely grateful! Now I can go harder and fuel more. Which means more what? Pizzaaaaaaa duh!

My weight has stayed at pretty average 125 lbs. I don’t really pay attention to the scale since I’m shooting for strength, muscle, and transforming my body composition. My measurements have stayed consistent overall, but my waist is shrinking! I want to measure my BF% this week to get a better idea of where my body is sitting. As far as strength and composition, I’m very satisfied.

Small of Waist: 25.5 in
Waist: 27 in
Hips: 38.5 in
Right Leg: 22.5 in
Left Leg: 22 in
Right Arm: 10.5 in
Left Arm: 10.5 in

The past few weeks I’ve been debating whether or not I should compete this year. I’m not sure if I want to do Emerald Cup in 11 weeks or wait for a show in Fall. Emerald Cup seems so soon, but I am sentimentally attached to the idea of competing in what was my first and only show. I’ve also been entertaining the idea of competing WBFF. I love the body composition of WBFF competitors and their stage presence. More to come!

progress

Left: January 17th, 2016                        Right: January 24th, 2016

 

~Jess

Day 1 – FitBliss Fitness Training!

Today marks the first day of my FitBliss Fitness Training program with Lynndsey Eldridge and her wonderful team! I’m very excited, I’ve been needing an ass whooping for several months now. I’m ready to grow, become stronger, create a healthy lifestyle again and be held accountable to achieve my goals. I will be documenting my journey on this blog as another form of accountability. I’ll try to check in at least once a week with updates on measurements, weigh ins, and progress pictures.

fitblissWho knows, maybe I’ll decide to compete next year?! Big goals underway….

~Jess

First Full Workout with Video!

Whewwww! First workout with exercise videos posted! I beat my goal and had it up mid week instead of the weekend, so I hope you enjoy.

Make sure you download the Tabata Pro Timer app, it’s the best Tabata timer I have used, super easy and definitely worth the $2.99. Also, invest in a KB (kettlebell)! This single piece of workout equipment will be your best friend. Training with a KB delivers results, builds strength, and challenges your body.

This workout takes approximate 16 minutes. You WILL be out of breathe, and you should hurt the next day. I completed this workout yesterday and it was extremely tough. My heart rate hit a high of 186!

Have fun with it and let me know what you think! If the format should be a little different, let me know. I can embed the videos directly in the post, or leave them as they are with hyperlinks. Feedback is much appreciated, enjoy!

TABATA CIRCUIT
Tabata #1: 8 cycles (30 seconds work, 10 seconds rest)
Tabata #2: 8 cycles (30 seconds work, 10 seconds rest)
Tabata #1: 8 cycles (30 seconds work, 10 seconds rest)