Reasons to Cut Your Hair

I got a fresh hair cut and I gotta say I feel like a brand fucking new person! The whole time I was getting my hair chopped off I was thinking to myself, “Why the hell did I wait this long?! NEVER AGAIN WILL I TRY TO GROW OUT MY HAIR!” I’m about to list some reasons why short hair is better than long hair…. in my opinion.

Why would you want this? Sure, long hair is beautiful, we see how gorgeous and voluminous long hair can be in the magazines, in the movies, and on Pinterest. Thick luscious locks, bouncing with life; or long straight sleek and silky. You can do so many cool things with your long hair! You can pin ideas off Pinterest and try them at home.  The rare few are blessed with this gift. In other cases like my own, we suffer from fine limp hair that can’t seem to hold a curl no matter how hard we try.

long hair





When you could have short hair like this, and look like a fucking badass?! When you find the right hair stylist, it’s like you hit the jack pot! You trust them with your hair like you would trust them with your life. After all, your hair is your head suit. Only the most talented stylists can replicate that edgy short cut for ANY hair type, whereas average hair stylists cut down your hopes and dreams and insult your hair. I trust only ONE person with my hair, and that is Michelle Bryant. She makes me look and feel like the badass that I am.





‘Resting Bitch Face’ would no longer be ‘Resting Bitch Face’ . In your case you would have ‘Resting Badass Face’, and that’s MUCH better. I suffer from ‘Resting Bitch Face’…. chronically. I don’t mean to go around looking like a sour puss all the time! Having short hair gives me an excuse now. Now I just look like a badass, no one will mess with me. They will either be intimidated by me or curious. I will remain mysterious. I gotta say, it matches my personality.







You wouldn’t have to spend copious amounts of time blow drying, brushing, detangling, straightening, curling EVER again. Long hair is so high maintenance, I truly don’t understand how the average woman with long hair does it! They spend so much time blow drying their hair with a round brush, comb, and/or paddle brush. There’s a brush for everything. They spend hours upon hours detangling their hair, straightening it, and curling it. On average, it takes women an hour and a half to get ready for the day. Fuck that bullshit!








You could definitely utilize your morning time better by sleeping in or cooking pancakes for breakfast 🙂 Guess what? It takes me 15 minutes to get ready in the morning. That’s right. 15 minutes. It takes a little bit longer if I’m feeling fancy enough for eye shadow. I literally throw some pomade shit in my hair and call it good. I don’t even use a brush. I get to take my time packing my gym bag in the morning, spend a little time with the hubby, and surf the interwebz on Facebook, email, and the news. I annoy my dog for 5 minutes and head out the door. Never feel rushed. Feeling rushed is a horrible way to start your day….. so cut all that hurrr off!






You would never have to buy hair ties or hair accessories EVER. Do you ever wonder how much money you’ve spent in your life time on these lil fuckers?! ‘Nuff said.

hair tie







That shit wouldn’t get in your face when you roll the car windows down or try to eat… and your hair wouldn’t get stuck in your fucking lipgloss. “GOD DAMN IT, I JUST REAPPLIED!” My hair was constantly getting in my face, I hated it. In the gym, cleaning the house, just hanging out doing nothing in particular, it always fell in my face, eyes, and mouth. I’m too lazy to do anything about it, so I decided cutting it all off was the better alternative. Not to mention, I’m a lot less hot!









You could workout more efficiently. No redoing your bun or having hair fall in your face. This kinda falls into the category before, but working out is a huge factor in my life. Sure, you can throw your hair up in a bun, but if you’re anything like me, you’re very aggressive with how you put your hair up and how you take it down. I suffered from hair breakage and major overall damage. Now my hair feels just as healthy as I feel inside and out. No more ripping hair, messy buns, or hair falling out of my head band and into my face.






Draws attention to your eyes, so you better be confident to rock this cut. Only a few can really pull off the long hair, but only few can pull off the short hair too. It takes a lot of confidence for a woman to cut off all her hair. At first you feel bare, naked, and in the spotlight. It’s obvious when you cut your hair that short and people will definitely comment. Feel comfortable enough in your own skin and no one else’s opinions should matter, the good and bad. It’s your fucking hair after all.









Wednesday Workout



It seems to me that today was ‘Leg Day’ across social media. Here was my leg workout for the day!

I have this new found motivation to kill it in the gym. I’m not gonna lie to you, I hadn’t gone to the gym Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and o my god…. MONDAY! The Sangria Friday knocked me on my ass while I was helping my gal pal with her wedding invitations. Does the headstand yoga moves I did in the bar that night count as a workout?! I did a spectacular job by the way….

I swear that's not me! But recognize this gal?!

I swear that’s not me! But recognize this gal?!

Saturday I was WAY too hungover to even think about moving. I had a previous engagement that I rolled out of bed for. There was no way I was going to back out of a Volunteer event I signed up for at work. High five me, you pulled your ass outta bed and did it!

Saturday night the hubby and I had a House of Cards marathon and ate pizzaaaaa. YUSSSSS! Pizza! I eat that shit! It’s great…..

Sunday…. well I slept in really late decided to enjoy French Toast bedazzled in shredded coconut flakes, chocolate chips, and maple pancakes coconut butter. Scrumptious!

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I would have worked out Monday, but like I stated previously, I’ve been on a House of Cards Marathon and made the mistake of staying up to late Monday and not getting out of bed to workout before my 8:30am to 5:00pm shift. Alright, alright, I could have worked out AFTER work…. but I didn’t get out until 6:00pm and I was straight exhausted!

"Really? You could have worked out......."

“Really? You could have worked out…….”

Yesterday I had my appointment with Admissions and Financial Aid for school at Bellevue College. All my information is in! All I have to do is take the Compass Placement test, and send in one more Financial Aid form. I’M GONNA BE GOING TO SCHOOL IN THE FALL BITCHES! *Happy Dance!* My happy dance was my workout. Just kidding, I did an hour of Zuzka videos at home, kicked my ARSE!

…… and that is all folks.

Thank god I know how to freakin’ use gifs now….



Love Your Body

Love Your Body

I was ‘working really hard today’ at work when I stumbled across this Groupon. I wanted to share this on my blog because I’m genuinely really pleased with the gal they chose to model. She obviously has an extremely gorgeous body with curves in all the right places and I think she rocks the bikini out of this world.

For a while I was obsessed with rock hard abs, a size 24 inch waist, minimal body fat, and lean, lean, LEAN! Although that body type has it’s own appeal, I really admire my naturally curvier self. I love eating and I love working out. End of story. I shouldn’t STOP feeling sexy because I no longer weigh 110lbs.

I love my muscle, I love my butt, I love my waist, I love my shape, and I love myself. I’ll be real with you. I weigh 126lbs right now, and I’m pretty damn pleased with my body composition. The scale doesn’t matter. When I started my competition I weighed 118lbs, but I must say, I like my current shape better.

Although I gained so much experience the past 6 months, I have never loved my body, hated my body, and picked apart every aspect of myself so much. I was a hot mess I’ll tell ya. A train wreck, an emotional roller coaster, hot and cold, moody, snappy, irate, and downright rude from time to time. I kept telling myself that it’ll pass, the emotions will pass and my goal was much more important to me. I wasn’t healthy, but I kept telling myself that I was.

Post competition was equally a nightmare. I blew up like a bloated whale carcass! I felt like I was in a stranger’s body! I couldn’t stop looking at myself in the mirror thinking how FAT I was, I was embarrassed to go back to the gym and see all the people that praised my journey and complimented my physique. I was afraid they would judge me or think less of me.

A month later and I am FINALLY happy. You should love your body at any stage. Every shape is beautiful.


Monday Outdoor HIIT Workout

Happy Monday!

It’s a new week, and I’m freakin’ excited about it. 3 day weekend!

I have a confession (I feel like I confess MANY things to my blog), I really haven’t been diggin’ the Erin Stern 4 Week Trainer program. It’s been incredibly boring, I can’t stand the amount of repetitive lifting. Don’t get me wrong, I think the program itself is pretty great for beginners, and has a pretty good format, but I personally need more cardio and HIIT training. I like being out of breathe and elevating my heart rate for extended periods of time. I feel like the harder it is to breathe, that’s when the most work is being done. I like lifting too, but not 4-5 days a week. I would rather lift about 2-3 days a week, incorporate plyo HIIT training into every workout whether it’s for 15 minutes or 45 minutes, and do cardio about 4-5 days a week; distances from 2 miles a day to 13 miles a day.

Today’s workout is inspired by the awesome weather that we’ve been having! You can do this outdoors, all you need is your body and a jump rope. Super awesome cardio and bodyweight plyo exercises. Here is the workout if you can’t read the exercises in the photo:

-1 minute jump ropemondayhiit
-10 Burpees
-1 minute jump rope
-20 Curtsey Lunge to Jump Squat
-1 minute jump rope
-20 Sumo Squat with Leg Lift
-1 minute jump rope
-10/10 Backward Lunge to Kick
-1 minute jump rope
-40 Mountain Climbers


I plan on going to a run today, ranging anywhere from 4-8 miles. I’m gonna let my body be the judge of how far I’ll run. The route I plan on taking is completely paved with plenty of elevation inclines and drops. If I only run 4 miles I will be doing the above workout, if I run 8 miles…. TO HELL WITH A SECOND WORKOUT!

I hope everyone enjoys their Monday, have a great week and stay tuned for more updates!


Monday, May 12th Workout

Monday, May 12th Workout

Hey Guys!

I’m onto week 2 of the Erin Stern Training Program. I will admit, I have EXTREMELY modified it to fit my own fitness goals. Like I have stated previously, I love the basic effective layout of the training program, but I will definitely spruce it up so I’m not bored.

Instead of doing a treadmill jog to warm up before my workout, I am doing jump rope and plyometric bodyweight circuits. Much more exciting, versatile, FUN, and challenging on all my muscles.

I have also added combo exercises to target several muscle groups and I have reduced exercises that isolate one specific muscle. I get extremely bored picking something up and putting it down repeatedly, I like adding flare and excitement into my routine!

I hope you enjoy! Forgive my elaborate workout photo, I was vibin’ off the sunshine today, I had a magnificent Monday, hope you did too!


Monday May 5th Workout

Monday May 5th Workout

Hey Guys! Today marks Day 01 of my Erin Stern 4 Week Trainer Program.

Today targeted shoulders and arms with a short ab circuit at the end. I got a pretty good pump on, my goal is to lift as heavy as possible, increasing my weights within the next 4 weeks. It was a pretty basic workout, I’m really excited for tomorrow’s ploy and leg daaaaaay!

My friend Kat is doing the program with me, she has a free week pass at my gym and will possibly get a membership. Yippee! Lifting and squatting buddy 🙂 I can’t wait to build bigger stronger glutes, tone up, get rid of my fluff and see my abs again!

One day at a time done the healthy way. Slowly but surely and definitely maintainable 🙂


Epic. Weekend.

Epic. Weekend.

I must say, I had the most epic weekend.

Derek and I went to see Glitch Mob at the Showbox Sodo in Downtown Seattle last night. It was pretty FREAKIN’ epic! Words can’t even describe how incredible their performance was last night, I couldn’t stop smiling and was nearly on the verge of tears, such an emotional experience for sure. They put on the best show I’ve ever witnessed, hands down.


I can’t even begin to describe the overpowering magnetic sensation when they turned on their instruments and tore down the black tarp to reveal their set. As my friend Ian said, it felt like a bass massage when they started revving up equipment, I’m getting freakin’ chills just thinking about it! Their stage performance was amazing, completely different than their ‘Drink the Sea Tour’ 4 years ago. Both performances were extraordinary, but I loved their new flavor. I couldn’t stop staring, these guys are truly in sync with their music and love and appreciate their fans more than anything.

I realized that Derek and I have been loyal fans for years, at least 5 years and their music has been the soundtrack of our lives. When Derek and I first met 4 1/2 years ago we went to their ‘Drink the Sea’ concert at the Showbox and fell in love with their song ‘Between Two Points’ and eventually became engaged, choosing that song ‘Between Two Points’ to be our wedding song. We remained loyal fans over the years as they worked on their new album ‘Love, Death, Immortality’ which seemed to be an eternity before it was finally released. For our 2 year anniversary this February we went to our friends gorgeous cabin in the mountains of Twisp and had an amazing time sitting by the fire place in leather recliner chairs basking in the sunlight through the windows with an amazing epic snow landscape, listening to their new album ‘Love, Death, Immortality’ from front to back on repeat. It was a surreal experience. You can imagine how awestruck we were when we saw them live last night, they were everything I had imagined and more.

After the show we waited to meet them, thank them for returning to Seattle and putting on a good show, and take a picture with them. Perfect night, I couldn’t have asked for a better weekend. Derek and I got to spend quality time with each other as well, something we haven’t done in a really REALLY long time.


Before we went to the show, he took me to his school and showed me around campus. It was really cool to finally see where he spends a lot of his time studying, not to mention a lot of money on tuition! 😉 Seattle University is a very impressive school, I say Derek is spoiled! After he gave me the short version of the campus tour, we went to Rock Bottom Brewery for their delicious Cheesy Jalepeno Pretzel Sticks & Cheese Dip, 2 A.M Burger with their famous Mac n’ Cheese, and of course some delicious brews. We also deep cleaned our house earlier Saturday, which NEEDED to happen! We had a fun AND productive weekend, it was really nice to come home last night at 1:30am to a clean house, shower, and freshly made bed with clean sheets!

We didn’t end up going to bed last night until 4am! Derek woke up at 11:30am to do homework, and I slept in till 1:30pm, you can imagine how weird I felt waking up with have the day gone. O! I have positive news that IS health related! This morning I woke up and my bloat had banished! Hell yeah! I was starting to get really depressed, I thought I was going to remain soft and unsightly forever, possibly put on even MORE weight! I was drowning my sorrows in food too, I couldn’t stop eating all week. My bloating had gotten so uncomfortable and painful, last night being the peak of it. It felt my internal organs were expanding, burning, and possibly exploding. I know, disgusting. BUT…. this morning I woke up a deflated much healthier size! Of course I’m not in ‘peak week’ condition, but I put on 2 extra inches around my waist and I couldn’t be more happy with how I feel mentally and physically. I’m so excited to hit the gym tomorrow, eat so much better, and find a healthy maintainable balance in my life.

To be honest, I won’t be competing again in the future. I feel like I damaged my body more than anything throughout the entire process. It seems so contradictory to promote ‘health and fitness’ with poor nutrition, improperly fueling your body, having to decrease your lifting weight because you’re so weak, and going through desperate measures such as taking water pills and depleting your body the week before a competition. It’s just not my cup of tea. I enjoy working out, getting stronger, and sweating for the mental benefits, endorphin rush, and of course physical benefits. However, aesthetics aren’t the only important benefits of being physically active and ‘dieting’. I’m worth a lot more than what I spent on my competition, and 3 minutes of stage time. The last 6 months wrecked havoc on my mind, body, and family life. I couldn’t put my family through that kind of strain again, they deserve better and I deserve better.

Yes, I learned a lot, and it was a positive experience in many ways. Body building isn’t my calling, my passion, or where I belong. There are other outlets of fitness and health I would rather take that would make me feel so much healthier and happier. Stick around and see what I do next! Thanks for following my journey this far, I still have a ways to go 🙂



Post Comp Blues – Reality Check

Post Comp Blue - Reality Check

I’ve got a nasty case of the ‘post comp blues.’ The photo on the left was taken 3 days before my competition, and the photo on the right was taken 2 days after my competition.

I’ve been putting on weight like crazy, holding water like no one’s business. I’m getting downright depressed. I made the mistake of stepping on the scale today, and guess what? I PUT ON 14 GOD DAMN POUNDS! How the eff does THAT happen?!?!

My whole entire body feels puffy, bloated, and swollen. I have ‘kankles’, my feet are swollen and they ACHE. Every inch of my body feels soft, it’s so hard to workout carrying around 14 extra pounds…. it’s sad, I can’t even keep my balance. I started crying once I stepped off the scale. I’m embarrassed to go to the gym, I don’t want anybody to see me or talk to me. I’m wearing PANTS to the gym, I’m not confident enough to wear shorts 😦

Of course this week is 80 degrees and absolutely gorgeous, the ONE week this year where I want to wear shorts because of the heat, I am embarrassed because of my sausage legs. A lady saw me at the gym right after I stepped off the scale and asked me how my competition went and I broke down crying, so pathetic. I felt so embarrassed, but she encouraged me and told me I’m young and would lose the weight in no time.

Yes, I know the competition body isn’t maintainable, but 14 freakin’ pounds?!?! I did a number on myself, and I hope I can recover.

My competition weight was 111lbs and I currently weigh 125lbs. I weigh more than when I began training for Emerald Cup!

Here is my plan:

I will take the remainder of the week off. Derek says my body needs to reset after putting it through hell. I will start back up training on Monday with a new game plan, hopefully by then I will have shed some of this water weight. I also cleaned out my kitchen of any left over goodies from my ‘Rewards Box’. Holy shit, I didn’t realize how much I actually had! I had Snickers, Hershey Cookies n Creme bars, Mr. Goodbars, Babe Ruth’s, Reeses eggs from Easter, Peanut Butter Cups, Cadbury Eggs, Pop Tarts, Lindor White Truffles, M&M’s etc. I kept very few select candies (the nicer ones) and hid them in a shoe box on the top shelf of my cabinets for when I can control my cravings better, and the rest I am taking to work.

I am going to start eating cleaner too. To be honest, the past few days I have been on SHOVE MY FACE MODE, with anything BAD. I’m not going to worry about my portions and macros until next week, just eating cleaner foods and less sugar.

I hurt my body, I put it through hell, it will take time to find that perfect balance again, but I KNOW it’s possible. My goal is to weigh between 115lbs and 118lbs. Just another goal! I’ve been through worse! Time to find a healthy life style balance I can maintain!

Staying strong…..


Emerald Cup Update!


girls2Let me start off by confessing that I haven’t eaten any REAL food today. Today I’ve had French Toast slathered in Caramel Almond Spread, Vanilla Chocolate Swirl ice cream from Costco, jelly beans galore, chocolate, Chicago style popcorn mix, pop tarts and peanut butter and so much more. I’m being real with you. Whew! Now that I have confessed, I will update you guys on my Emerald Cup 2014 Bikini debut experience!

It was a fucking blast. I had a great time! Of course I was stressed out beyond reason preparing during Peak Week, but the actual day was amazing. I met such amazing ladies, everyone was extremely supportive and complimenting each other left and right, and it was awesome being on stage. It was pretty cool FINALLY meeting all the gals that I have kept in contact with through Instagram and other social media. I felt like such a fan girl meeting everybody!

Emerald Cup on Saturday; at first I was skeptical of how the day would go, I was pretty disappointed when I found out the Bikini category had to come BACK for the night show. Last year Emerald Cup only held the bikini division during pre judging in the morning show. I had my mind set on eating a burger in the afternoon right after pre judging! Change of plans, I was going to be tanned, suited up, face caked in make up for HOURS and HOURS! *Le siiiiiiigh*…… ecup2

I met an amazing girl named Brittany Love and we remained Rookie buddies throughout the day. I invited her to my house so we could rest and get ready for the night show after pre judging. The morning show was STRESSFUL! We BARELY made it in time for my to go back stage, get glazed and pump up to go on stage! Apparently they were blasting through the program pretty quickly!

After we parked and I kissed Derek goodbye, I ran up to the 4th floor where we get ready and they were calling Bikini A to line up to go in the freight elevator to go down to the stage! I literally had to THROW my bag down and get my shoes on as fast as possible and catch the elevator before it went down! Talk about an adrenaline rush! I thought I had to walk out on stage right after that, but thankfully there were 2 classes ahead of us and I still had time to glaze, pump up, and get bikini bite for my bottoms. HOLY CRAP! SO CLOSE!

Pre judging went really really well! I did great on my posing, felt comfortable, but hopefully not TOO comfortable. You always think about what you could have done differently after the fact, but I think I did great for my first show! I got second call outs, placed 7th out of 24 gorgeous ladies! I was shocked! Emerald Cup is a huge deal, the largest and most prestigious show in the Northwest and I placed 7th! I actually did better than some girls who have been doing this for years and have won in the past. I felt SO honored!


I actually had no idea what was going on while I was up there on stage for pre judging. I was just doing my thing, posing, smiling, checking out the judges and repeating in my head “#73, #73, don’t forget your number is 73 if they call you!” AND THEY DID! The girls were so sweet, complimenting my physique and my abs, I was probably blushing but you couldn’t tell with the copious amounts of make up on my face.

Success! I was well prepared, didn’t forget anything important that I might need, and didn’t pack too much either! All I ate all day were rice cakes, almond butter and honey. It was quite delicious, a lot better than what I had been eating all week!

After pre judging Brittany and I went back to my place to kick up our feet and relax. I popped in Mean Girls, I chilled and she napped for a few. Pretty relaxing! It was really nice living right down the street! Derek was a sweet heart and drove me everywhere I needed to be even though this was Kai’s weekend to visit. Kai was so well behaved and sat still for BOTH shows! Derek and Kai went to the dog park with Keyda since it was a gorgeous day while Brittany and I rested. I owe him so much! He’s done a lot for me throughout this entire process, he’s been beyond accommodating. I’m definitely a lucky girl 🙂


For the night show Brittany and I made sure we got there at 6:00pm to give ourselves ample time to watch our friends and get ready ourselves ready! We had a lot more time to chat with the other girls and meet new people on the 4th floor. Bikini A wasn’t on stage until about 8:45pm – 9:00pm! Looooong night! I was such a nervous wreck for Finals! My face was twitching while I was smiling, and I nearly TRIPPED during my walk and poses! Ughhhhh! SO embarrassing, especially on the Jumbo Screen! The side of my shoe snagged on the staging. The stage was carpeted. No excuse, but the other gals said I recovered well.

Pre judging and Finals were both extremely quick! Hours or preparation, primping, fussing, and tons of money forked out for 3-5 minutes of stage presence! Great experience regardless, I’m really glad I set this goal and followed through with it. This has been an extreme challenge, the journey has been long and hard. I’ve given this goal my undivided attention, vested so much time, research, and resources into it but I’m so glad that I did. I learned so much, met such amazing people, and can say that I have competed in the largest bodybuilding competition in the Northwest and that I placed 7th out 24 amazing girls! This Rookie girl kicked ASS!

The best part was seeing my friends there! Jason & Sonya, Kat & Mat, Danielle & Gerrett, Amir, Derek and Kai all came out to support me! Some people came to Pre judging AND Finals! I felt so loved, it was amazing seeing them! After Finals Danielle and Gerrett came out to Rock Bottom Brewery with us. I did the big NO-NO and went straight for salt…. I ate the Ball Park Pretzels with cheese dip, the Laredo burger and fries, and a beer! Not to mention I’ve been gorging myself on candy and sweets all day! Shopping at Costco this morning was like being in heaven! I could finally order from the food court and buy any groceries I wanted! I’m a free girl! I think half the reason I’m gorging myself is simply because I can now. I can do ANYTHING. I can workout how I want, when I want, hang out with friends, go out to bars, enjoy happy hours, and eat whatever the hell I want.


This has been an experience for sure. Would I do it again? I don’t know. I know for a fact that I won’t be competing in another bikini competition for a long time. I need to take time to relax, spend time with my family, and set new goals. My body and mind need a break from such a regimented schedule. I want to appreciate the small things in life again, my mind has been on a single track this entire time and it feels freakin’ great to be free!

Now I’m onto the next goal! Anybody got any ideas!? I really want to do another half marathon but I also want to try something new. I think for now I’m going to focus on reverse dieting (beginning tomorrow) out of this insane prep diet, creating clean healthy meals, and spending time with my friends and family. It feels freakin’ great and refreshing!

Thank you everyone for following my journey! I’m so happy I am able to inspire people, and I’m so happy you guys have been so supportive of me, it has helped me immensely! This isn’t the last you’ll hear from me, stay tuned for photo updates and other goals I have coming up!